Save me from myself (Dan Fic)

 It's that time again. Time for you to lock yourself in your bedroom with music blasting, while you take that ever so beloved razor to your flesh once again.
You grin, tears rolling down your cheeks as you grab your razor from that little old box you keep on your desk. "It's been a long time, friend.." You whisper sofly.
You couldn't take it anymore. The stress of Uni, finding a job, trying to be what everyone else wanted you to be. Not to mention you're self esteem isn't great. You hate yourself, your weight, your face, your everything. You where one huge flaw to yourself.
All while you're madly in love with your flate mate, Dan.
Of course, why would Dan fall for a girl like you afterall?
Dan was all too perfect for you. His fame growing bigger by the second. You knew you could never have him. And that he didn't want you in that way anyway. It killed you inside. Seeing that beautiful smile each day, those lips, and not being able to kiss them like you always dreamed of, sense the day you found his Youtuber channel.
It was so unfair. But no one said growing up would be easy.

Finally, it's that moment, that moment you've put off for nearly 8 months because you made a promise to someone very near and dear to your heart. Austin Carlile. Lead singer from the band that saved your life many times, Of Mice and Men.
When you met him 8 months ago at one of their concerts. You didn't plan it, but when you where getting his autograph, he saw the scars on your arms, and pulled you aside. You and him talked for about 15 minutes, and most of that was spent you crying while he hugged you, and telling you everything was gonna be okay.
When you stopped crying, he made you promise you wouldn't self harm again. And you've kept that promise up until now.
All the weight of everything is crushing you, eating you from the inside out, and you can take it no longer.

You looked at that oh so familiar blade and grazed it gently with your finger. You made sure to turn the volume on your music up, so Dan couldn't hear you crying.
More tears streaming down your face, you've decided to do this again. So you pull up your sleeve, and look at all your scars from a previous life. And as you press the razor against your arm, sudden stinging comes apon you, along with a feeling of relief.
Blood drips down your arm onto your legs as you sob into the end of your bed.
Suddenly, Dan walks in, at first asking you if you had seen the remote to the TV, but then is cut off by the sight of blood on your wrist.
"Oh my God"..Dan's shocked, and honestly so are you. You where so sure you had locked your door.
Dan ran over to you, the look of fear and panic in his eyes. Dan knew about your previous addiction to cutting, and he wanted to prevent that from ever happening again.
But now, he thought he had failed you, as your best friend, he couldn't help but feel it was his fault.
Tears fill his eyes as you look at him with eye liner all ran down your cheeks. A tear fell from his eye, but he quickly wiped it away and started to clean the blood off of you.
Not a word was spoken the whole time he cleaned and bandaged you.
"I'm sorry.." Dan spoke in a soft, but angry voice. You looked up at him saying "Why are you sorry? I did this to myself.."
Dan replied "I wasn't there for you enough. I should have seen the signs sooner. You blasting music alone in your room, your sudden bursts of depression..I could have prevented this. And I'm so damn sorry."
Dan then pulled you close to him, laying your head on his chest, while silently crying. "I won't let you do this again. I promise I'll be here more."
You could feel tears fall off of his cheek and landing on your head. You felt so guilty, you not only broke a promise to your hero, but now the one person you'd give your very life for, feels like it's his fault that you screwed up.
You took a glance at your wrist, and the bandage already soked with blood. You grip onto Dan's t-shirt tightly, trying not to cry.
Dan spoke again. "Sleep sweetheart. I'll be here, I'll hold you while you slumber. Please, rest a while.."
"Thank you.." You say, nearly breaking.
It didn't take very long to drift off into wonderful sleep, seeing as your arm was still in a great amount of pain. and Dan hummed a lovely lullaby to you.
Dan held you safe in his arms at the end of your bed, determined to keep you from harm.



~To be continued?~